Thanks for Bearing With Me!
i so appreciate the outpouring of love and support both my in-person and online friends continue to give me while dealing with postpartum depression. i do feel much more “even” than i did a few months ago but not where i want/need to be.
you may have noticed i haven’t been blogging as consistently as i had been for the past 3+ years. if you haven’t, well, just pretend like you noticed jeeeeez.
here’s the tricky thing for me with depression – it strips me of my creativity.
writing has been an enjoyable outlet for my creativity and lately i have been struggling to get my groove back. it is disappointing to feel this way because blogging has been an important part of who i am and how i identify.
it is also very frustrating to feel this way.
the past year or so, i finally started feeling confident about being an entrepreneur, creating valuable content and beginning to expand what i want the new wifestyle to be. it is hard to be in the business that my husband and i are in because it is based on our intellectual property. at the moment, my ‘property’ feels like it’s been burned to the ground. however, that’s what homeowner’s insurance is for, right…? (okay, enough with this odd metaphor).
as i sit here writing, i am realizing that it’s actually a good sign that i’m feeling frustrated by a lack of desire to create. up until recently, i have felt apathetic about it all so feeling frustration is a step in the right direction.
with that being said, i shall share a few updates with you!
first things first, atlas is growing more and more adorable by the day! she is smiling, giggling and developing as she should be. she’s currently 26 inches long and about 15lbs. it’s awesome and so very much better than those newborn days. ooof.
she is happiest morning person and the smiles she gives us when she first wakes up could melt elsa’s entire ice castle.
we took our first trip of 2017 to portland, oregon last week. before we left, ravery and i put in our calendar “plan food for portland” because we wanted to be sure to hit all the places we missed and wanted to try. then we got hit with food poisoning as we boarded the plane and my nightmare came true. i’ll spare you the details but know it was horrible.
then, portland got hit with the 5th worst snowstorm in its history.
i know it may not look like much (seeing as how there are currently 6 inches out my window in colorado) but portland is not equipped to handle that much snow. the city shuts down. we had to cancel many plans with friends. being trapped in a hotel while the city is full of your friends is highly upsetting.
thankfully we got out thursday night with our besties to try M.E.C. in portland (it’s insanely good mediterranean food). it was the first real food we had since we landed on monday.
we were so stir crazy from hotel life that, without alcohol, all of us were laughing to the point of crying thanks to snapchat’s faceswap.
if you wondered what i might look like with a beard, wonder no more:
in the midst of this, something unique happened. by merging our two husbands, a very sexy man (and an elf) were born:
i’ll let you decide who is who.
i also must share the below photo with you. atlas can throw a mean bottom lip and i find it equally sad and absolutely hilarious. what made her stick out her lip? my soulfriend lindsey was holding her and i, her mother, walked up and smiled at her. hahaha
again, thank you for bearing with me. i miss my blogging friends. i miss feeling a purpose in addition to motherhood. i miss the way i used to feel. if stella can get her groove back, so can i.
i am having mixed feelings of providing random life updates and actually providing content that has more value in it. if you have a preference or things you like that i write about, please let me know. it may help to spark something and i’ll give you full credit!
i am going to do my best to post each wednesday so be on the look out! okay, back to singing children’s songs, dealing with taxes and being a human teething resource for this kid of mine!